Emotional Breakdown.

[Joeducktape]

Every had an emotional breakdown? Crying or yelling or both?
What did it feel like- emotionally and physically? How did you feel afterwards? Have you ever done it in front of someone else? How did they react?

[Deloclya]

I always feel really frustrated and helpless and it makes me tingle physically... I know that's odd, but that's what happens for me. I get really really angry and frustrated and feel like I can't do anything and then I start crying. But I never cry for more than a few minutes, even though the frustration will stay for hours.

[Crysi]

Well... it depends. I have panic attacks, and I've had nervous breakdowns. I'll describe both for you.

Panic attacks: Obviously, I start panicking. Usually I start by rocking myself back and forth, while my mind races at an insane speed. Even when I realize I'm having one, it's difficult for me to force myself out of it. So usually I just wait it out. When it ends, my mind slows to a stop, and I wander around kind of numb, unable to think anything. Then that wears off after a while, and I feel back to normal. I've had two in front of my boyfriend. I don't think he knew what was going on... He just knew I was crying and yelling and rocking myself and he didn't know what to do. So he made me look him in the eyes and he told me how we would fix the problem. I've also had panic attacks while online... A few members here have witnessed it. Reminders to breathe have helped. Frustrating situations can trigger mine, as can overwhelming problems. Stress is a huge factor as well.

Nervous breakdown: I just had one of these not too long ago, so it should be easy to remember. I felt insanely out of control of my emotions. I would get upset at the tiniest thing, and I would be overwhelmed by every out-of-place detail. I cried almost every night and didn't know who I was, what I wanted, or what to do about anything. I honestly felt insane. It was like PMS on steroids, lol. I felt suicidal for a bit, but only because I had no control over my emotions and I had no hope of the future. I hate being out of control... It lasted for a few weeks. Kevin was extremely patient with me, even though he didn't know what to do. Ever since, I've been very cautious and have tried to maintain control over my emotions. I feel like I'm slipping back every once in a while, but that usually only ends in a panic attack.

*laughs* Any questions?

[Joeducktape]

Thanks guys! Both very helpful. Anybody else? Anyone ever had a nervous breakdown where you got angry?

[Sam]

I've had a couple in my writing, if that could be of any service...but no, none personally.

[fishr]

Anyone ever had a nervous breakdown where you got angry?

Uh, I never had nervous breakdowns (at least not by my defination) but as a teen I had an awful time controling anger, also known as an uncontrolable temper. It, the anger, still exists today, but it's no where near as its peak as it once was. Ten being the worse, in my teens, my anger peaked at a nine. Now, it's around the the level of six. Fortunately for me, I've discovered positive outlets to focus that negative energy.

Since this is for research purposes, I'll offer some insight, even though it was a discouraging time. In my teens, I was extreamly irritable, where the slightest noise, movememt, or a specific tone in someone's voice would set me off. I would holler, slam doors, punch objects (whichever presented themselves first), cuss, and other things I don't feel too comfortable discussing because to this day, I'm still very ashamed myself and regret it everyday that I didn't seek help sooner. That kind of anger, in my opinion, is a mental illness.

I thought for many years what caused my temper; what fueled it, and the few solutions I've come up with is that I had a rough start in life with health problems, society in general, falling behind in school due to the many times in hospitals, and not seeing eye-to-eye with my dad especially.

For many years, I blamed the world for singling me out, and giving my sisters 'a perfect life' with no phyiscal illnesses and the like.

By my late teens, nineteen to be exact, I gradually realized this is no way to live, and there had to something worthwhile in this world to keep me happy. 2004 I will remember as 'my darkest hour' because I took every negative detail from my past and confronted them. It was indeed one of the hardest choices I accepted because I could feel myself slowly slipping into depression but confronting those 'demons' finally put my prespectives in full order. I never want to feel so lost that, that paracite (anger) infects me again. Today, I'm grateful having a loving and supportive family, a roof over my head, and in better health then I've been in a long time.

Heh, I'm not sure if that was the exact answer you were looking for, Joe, but if you have any questions also, feel free to ask. I didn't really go into examples because I'm not sure what exactly you're looking for.

[Joeducktape]

Thank you for the insight, fishr. Quite interesting.

[MH Mijolnir]

When I was younger I spazed out a few times. I remember one occasion pretty well, I was shaking all over with every emotion from anger to extreme depression and I was hyper-ventilating, choking, wailing, etc. etc.

You sweat a lot, your temp gets pretty high. Good stuff, hope I helped.

[Dream Deep]

crysi said:

Panic attacks: Obviously, I start panicking. Usually I start by rocking myself back and forth, while my mind races at an insane speed. Even when I realize I'm having one, it's difficult for me to force myself out of it. So usually I just wait it out. When it ends, my mind slows to a stop, and I wander around kind of numb, unable to think anything. Then that wears off after a while, and I feel back to normal. I've had two in front of my boyfriend. I don't think he knew what was going on... He just knew I was crying and yelling and rocking myself and he didn't know what to do. So he made me look him in the eyes and he told me how we would fix the problem. I've also had panic attacks while online... A few members here have witnessed it. Reminders to breathe have helped. Frustrating situations can trigger mine, as can overwhelming problems. Stress is a huge factor as well.

I had a panic attack once. *shudders* God that sucked. Yeah, my muscles kept tensing, I kept rocking, my muscles were jerking so much that when I tried to lay down on my back my knees kept jerking up, my back kept cramping. I had trouble breathing - and then I started to cry because I was afraid of what was happening to me. This made it harder to breathe - I couln't talk, I couldn't stop crying and I COULDN'T breathe! It felt like I was breathing through a straw, like the air was thick and I was suffocating. I was sweating and gasping for air and rocking because my muscles wouldn't stop tensing and cramping and twitching.

God did that suck.

AND I COULDN'T BREATHE!!!!

[sabradan]

I'm the same as Fishr. I have severe anger problems, only I often hold it in until I burst at like an...11 or 12 on a 1-10 scale.